This book helped me to overcome my programming. Many of the things in this book I specifically experienced. Many of my body memories mimic the exact torture descriptions in this book.
If you read this and have any intuition that you may also have been a mind control victim, I would urge you to trust those feelings. It took me a year to overcome my denial, but this book saved my life. It was something I could keep going back to for confirmation that I indeed was a mind controlled slave.
One thing that registered CIA mind controlled slaves have are stalkers. I want to write a little bit about my experience with stalkers in my life:
When I lived in Rexburg, ID, I was nursing my son Kyle at 3 AM in the morning, when out of the blue, a man leaped up in my front window. His shadow moved back and forth over the blinds. It absolutely freaked me out. I ran into the bedroom and tried to forget about it.
Another incident occurred in Rexburg, 5 years ago. I was alone with my son Kyle and was about to go out to visit a neighbor. As I walked toward the door to leave, with Kyle in his car seat, I reached the handle and a man was starting to come into my apartment at that moment. It was sheer luck that I opened the door right as he was opening it, and the surprise startled him. So he walked away with his head down, flashlight in his hand. At the time I thought maybe he was simply a meth addict, but it is more likely to realize he was stalking me because he would have seen me in the home moving around prior to my leaving.
Other incidents occurred when I lived in Utah. As I started reading about mind control on the internet, I had to fight feelings of being paranoid, when I would go out to the grocery store around the block, and many times as I was walking to or from the store, I would have random men show up behind me that did not live in the neighborhood. Again, I chalked it off to being paranoid and extra sensitive by the things I was reading about online. One day, I was playing with my kids outside, and a military helicopter came right over my head, to where I could see the pilot. I waved to him. He was literally 20 feet above my head. He circled around me and then left from the same direction he had come. This incident really freaked me out, it was as if to say, "stop reading about this you are getting into dangerous territory."
Of course, it wasn't until months later I put the pieces together. My denial was huge, but incomplete. In my heart, I have always known something was wrong with me. I knew my depression had to have some source, it couldn't just be genetics. In fact, in one of my memories, during programming, I asked my handler (not my dad, but someone at school or somewhere else) what to say about my depression, and he told me to say, "I apologize for my depression."
People need to know that if you have a mental illness, it is a cover by the CIA and Secret Societies to keep their trauma mind control secrets. Depression, Bi-polar, and Schizophrenia, are all covers for these acts.
In the book, it states that in 1965 there were 40,000 registered mind controlled slaves on the CIA registry. By then, trauma techniques have been mainstreamed by the different secret societies, and allowed much more programming to take place. I am sure there are 100,000s by now. If you think this was done to you, chances are it was, and you will have to really work at overcoming the denial alters, whose denial is supposedly saving your life.
I want to end with a little on forgiveness. While a lot of bad things were done to me by my own father, I would like to say here there I forgive him and my mother for the evil things they did to me.
I know that my Heavenly Parents love all their children. If not, then I couldn't expect them to love me without earning it. But they love me without price, and if they so love me, then they also so love the evil people in this world. I have come to the conclusion that NO ONE in their right mind would be evil. In order to carry out evil acts, you have to be under slavery of some kind to evil. It is Jesus Christ's atonement that frees us from evil. It is not our own righteousness. When Jesus died on the cross, He correctly stated, "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do." People who are evil, are not to blame, because they are not in their right minds. It is the work of Christ to restore people's minds to proper function and to deliver us from the bondage of mental illness that causes insane thinking and opens one up to being controlled by the devil.
I believe it is our job as Christians to hold the banner of God's love high to all men and women regardless of their sins. We are all beggars and we all need the atonement in some way, and though some people's sins will causes us great pain, in the end it will be worth it, because we will learn truth not only by obedience, but also by experience.
If you are one who is willingly in one of these secret societies, use your experiences to learn and teach others the importance of keeping the commandments, because no one knows better than you the pain that results from breaking the commandments, and ultimately the atonement is of great use if we use it to learn from our mistakes.
Jesus Christ will not turn away any person who comes to Him. 2 Nephi 26:25 states, "Behold, doth [Jesus] cry unto any, saying: Depart from me? Behold, I say unto you, Nay; but he saith: Come unto me all ye ends of the earth, buy milk and honey, without money and without price.